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Going trough my assignments, one of my topic is parenting styles.
According to Diana Baumrind there are four types of parenting styles:
authoritative, authoritarian, indulgent and neglectful.

I just have to say, I feel lucky for the way my parents raised me and my brother.
The style would be authoritive - characterized by a child-centered approach that holds high expectations of maturity. Authoritative parents can understand their children’s feeling and teach them how to regulate them. They often help them to find appropriate outlets to solve problems.

*click* - definitions of the parenting styles.

Now I don't want to judge whether other styles are better or worse, I just feel this one was right, healthy I don't mind saying! and if God blesses me with a child one day, I hope to  follow that kind of parenting method.

As a person who is crazy about children, who thinks that a child is a greatest gift from God, I pay attention to how the parents lead their little one's trough life. What kind of person they are 'creating' and what role can they play in this world in the future.

Don't feel like elaborating this topic, as I'm about to hit my dear bed, but I just want to give my appreciation to my lovely parents for how they raised me, for what they've done in my life and how amazing they are, not to mention that they are not only my parents but also my best friends.
And even though I caused lots of problems in the past, they never turned away from me, they always stood beside me. They guided me.
Even trough my hardest time, in what I put them trough, they still love me. And it's not just because 'i'm their child' - it's not always automatic! It's because of who they are.

And I know I'm not perfect, and no one is, but if you see any good values in me - that's only thanks to them.
They not only taughtt me how to love and how to respect one another. They showed me this world in a way that I feel I belong to it. That I love it no matter what, no matter how bad things are, how many miles away the one's we love are, no matter how much cruelty and pain we see.
They taught me how to pick myself up and face the reality, how to come out stronger and proud.
It's not always easy, but they keep me motivated!
I can't thank God enough for Them.
I just love them so much!

I really hope they can be proud of me one day, just as I am proud to have them as my parents.

<3

 

 

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Inspired,
very deeply
by small and big things.
by people around me and people I've never met
but most importantly by
His Mighty Love

*Love* <- link to a song that reminds me of His Great Love for us, especially in times when I am far away from my fellow-worship friends.
It gives me hope, it gives me joy, it gives me strength.

It keeps me motivated, and reminds me of my role and what kind of person I want to be.
I just need to work harder on fighting the temptations around me :)

It reminds me how Blessed I am, how Blessed my Family is and my Friends as well..

This picture was taken in November, the day before my departure for Malaysia, in NMP - Najswietszej Maryji Panny Matki Kosciola (Mother Church) Warsaw, Poland, where every first Sunday of the month we gather for a Filipino Mass, lead by Fr. Hillario who's been preeching in Poland for more than 10 years. It's always the mix of Polish and Filipino Culture, the great Spirit and devotion in prayers.
It's always lovely to see 'mga kababayan' (countrymen) gathered together to Praise God for his wonderful Love, far away from their homes. Feels like one Big Family in the House of God.

Those moments always bring joy to my heart, bring peace into my life.
I have to admit, I attended this Mass only several times, as I've been away (either in London or Philippines)
but I'm glad I ever did! And when I miss home, I miss those Sundays the most.

I'm counting days till I see my lovely Friends, till I see my dearest Family, but my biggest countdown is for when we gather in prayers together!

Please keep me in your prayers, as I dont forget to pray for you every day.
And don't forget that He loves Us, each one of Us.
Be grateful, stay Blessed.

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Those days when you just feel like a woman :)
doing whole week's laundries, swipping and vacuuming the whole house, making the kitchen shine :)
A refreshing shower with a new shampoo (gotta see which one is best for my super frizzy hair) and a bottle of cold mineral water - I feel like brand new :)
okay, it's still JUST one of those days.

the only thing I'd need to make this day perfect would be one of my girls, a nice coffee in the town and a good laugh!
sigh.

           well okay, that's not a cup of a nice coffee, but those are those moments I miss!

                          favorite spot to just sit and talk with my Bestie!


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offtopic

funny thing, my Dad spoke with this person who is selling his car to arrange the meeting. Everything was settled, all the details where there when my Dad recieve a message from that person saying "sorry to cancel our meeting sir, but my wife feels sad all of the sudden because of her car :( :$" (what's with the 'faces'?)
LOL
now who puts an add, makes all the arrangements just to suddenly feel sad about selling the car they put on the market?
crazy people :)
well that just means I will go for my second option, if nothing comes up till later today.


Why are cars in Malaysia so darn expensive? for the price of a second handed small car, back in Poland (not to mention States) I can get a nicer and a bigger one in better condition, if not a brand new one!

Craziness.

Anyways, have a Great Sunday!

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Home.
A place I spent eighteen years of my life. Eighteen wonderful years, full of love, unforgetable friendships and memories.
A place, which will always be missed, especially when far away.
Like now, about ten thusand miles away.
I've been away now for ten months, so far the longest.
Yet I know people who've been away from their houses for several years, I shouldn't complain then.
But they usually wouldn't have any other choice.
I do. Well, kinda.
Remembering 'why' I'm here in the first place makes me wana give it all up and start new life somewhere else.
Somewhere I would feel more 'myself'.

On the other hand, I love being where I am right now. I know I am very Blessed. I have those things I've dreamed of when I was a little girl - a house that I can step out barefooted whenever I want to (not like in an appartment in the middle of the city), summer season the whole year, a car. I'm also near to my second home - the Philippines.
I feel much more closer with the nature that surrounds me, I appreciate the beauty of this world much more since I'm here. Those beautiful Islands just in my reach..
And the cheap seafood! Mmm, well that's an aditional treat :)

But the thing with being 'myself'.. Well, I'm still ME. But what makes me 'fully me' are also people that complete my life!
Now, I know they are there for me, even though far away, I can still count on them, they still know every little thing that is going on in my life. It just doesn't seem the same.
 I don't like missing out in my love one's lives.
I wish I was there to comfort my family during my late Grandpa's funeral
I wish I was there TODAY to be a part of my older brother's Big Day. His wedding is still on at this moment.
But I'm here, and I can't do much about it right now.

I know I might be talking trough my lonesome. I just remember that's not how it was suppose to be when I, or actually not just me, planned this whole 'adventrue'.


But okay, before I start going around other issues (that wasn't my point, lol) I just want to say, what everyone knows anyway - I miss home. Every day, very badly. It makes me nostalgic very often. Even too often I would say. Even though I moved out two years ago, living here in Malaysia made me realize that Poland is my real home. Despite being born in the Philippines and spending my first year of my life there.
And even though Poland may only be a place I will visit once in a while in my future, I will always call it My Home.

I'm sure I will be going back to this topic once in a while :)
Natalia Kukulska - Tu moge byc soba <- it's just about what I mentioned above.

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I decided to move my blog here (from a Polish webblog) that I've been writing since 2oo2.
Lately I don't update it, so I hope I can come here once in a while and let out my thoughts :)
Many of my entries there were in Polish, and most of them should also be left as memories, so why not have a fresh, new start? :)


Lets start this fun!